Family!

I have one word for this:

AWESOME.

I LOVE seeing everyone :D

I know when I come home I'm a superstar

"I'll be your superstar"

In four days I will be married. Everything is starting to hit me at once. I want it to all be perfect. I know it will be because I have awesome people helping me.

I'm having a surge of emotions hit me like a brick today. I will be seeing my family this week, I have not been able to see them in almost 3 years. I'm excited, nervous, and will be sad when they go back home at the end of the week.

So here I am trying to get this place in order so it's presentable.

Have you ever

felt like crying for no apparent reason at all? Like randomly, without warning when you were fine 3 seconds ago? I do. I feel that way now. I don't know if its stress, or what it is, but I don't like it.

I was cooking supper for everyone and walked away because I suddenly felt sad. I've been feeling sad a lot lately. I have a wedding coming up, which I'm excited about.

I think it's everything. I started thinking about my cat today. I miss her. She never made me sad. She never hurt me (other than biting me, but that was her being her)

Nothing is ever as it seems.

When you have something you love, please remember to hold on to it because you never know when something will happen and you end up losing that.

Some poem

She's trapped in a world full of pain and sadness
Trapped in a nightmare of angst and madness
A place full of terror a horrible dream
A place full of shadows and horrible things
Nothing can fix whats already been broken
Nothing can close whats already open
She's crying, crying trying to run away
She's dying, dying, going to die today
Let her feel rest and finally be at peace
Once her body's finally deceased
Trapped, trapped, she's trying to break free
But nothing can save her now, that her car's in a tree
Dead, she's dead, the impact cracked her head

Never Fake

This one is keeping the name "Emotional Downpour" true.

I might use this in a story.

This girl, Mila and this guy, Malachi are a couple. They have a few friends which the friends don't know each other, but they come to Mila with a concern. "Malachi says if he wanted to, he could get any girl he wanted. A better girl." This, of course pissed Mila off. Like to the point to where she tried texting "Fuck you" to him, but deleted it and said "We need to talk" instead.

Mila, upset with Malachi went about her day, when her phone rang. It was Malachi, confused as to why they needed to "talk" and as to what he "did wrong". Mila calmly explains this issue, but lo and behold, he denies ever saying he could get any girl he wanted. She doesn't believe him, just like she doesn't believe he didn't look at other girls, she also told him not to delete the history on the computer. She said she knows when it's deleted and what all is on the computer.

Mila, a quiet, easy going soul was quickly losing her patience with Malachi. Malachi got to where he would yell at her and call her "fake" that was when she lost it and told him to "shut the fuck up" She and Malachi talked, but there is still tension. Malachi's defense when cornered "I don't know" didn't seem to work well either. Mila, now feeling insecure and not very pretty got to where she would cry herself to sleep.

Now that I don't know what else to add to that, I think I will express that I've been in a nostalgic mood lately. Reminiscing the past. Any friends/family reading this, if you gots older pics from gatherings/hang outs I was at, I wanna see em.

So, winter wants to play like that today.

It appears Winter is trying to come on out. Its getting cold outside x_x

I have to work tonight. 5pm to 10pm. Gonna have to figure out what to make for supper. Probably chili since it's so damn cold.

Gonna try to switch shifts with a co worker for Friday. I'm hoping it could work, this way I would be working day shift that day and be able to have fun that night.

My co worker was the one wanting to switch, so I was like "Alright, I'm working either way anyways that day"

I figure that would free up my friday night so I can hang out with peoples. Gotta talk to the manager about it today.

Me + work + work - coffee = x_x

That title doesn't really have anything to do with this post. I'm bored. There is nothing to do, and I should be asleep, but that might be a little problematic when one suffers from insomnia.

As you all know, I will be getting married in a few weeks to the love of my life. He is awesome and I am excited. I go back. Like WAY back with him.

Everything is finally coming together.